Rebuilding Walls

A couple of years ago my older daughter built me a raised flowerbed in the front yard under the picture window. It was not only a solution for poor clay soil, but also an aid for my aging knees. Gardening is much easier on the knees with a brick wall on which to sit.

This spring my husband had enough of the wet basement and decided to do something about it. The something included contracting a company to dig around both inside and outside of the foundation repairing cracks and adding a sump pump. With the digging up came the hedges and my rose bush. The brick wall also came down.

After the outside of the foundation was patched and the trenches refilled with dirt we got busy rebuilding the wall. I decided that since we were redoing it anyway why not make it an “L” shape design bringing it on around the side of the porch as well. To our surprise the new design took as many bricks . . . well almost the same amount. I had to run to the neighborhood home and garden store for one more brick.

As my youngest daughter prepares to start her last year of high school this fall I feel like that brick wall, but I’m not sure were to find the needed brick to finish reshaping my life.

The 2009/10 school year will be our sixteenth year to homeschool. By February I normally have the first of the text books for the fall already ordered and am formulating my plan for the next school year. It’s already April and I’ve hardly began. I’m finding myself dragging my feet . . . not wanting our final year of homeschool to begin . . . for the simple reason it will be our final year.

2010 has other mile stones as well. I turn fifty in March. Our older daughter will graduate from college in December. My husband and I will have been married twenty-five years. A possible wedding is even in the works.

Where to find the last brick for my redesigned wall? I’ve loved being a stay home mom and homeschooling our two daughters. But, what is life after homeschool suppose to look like? I’m not sure.